Haere Mai 2010

Less than 4 hours to a whole different year.

Not doing anything much.

Last two years in Msia, I slept thru the whole bunga-api-concert-screaming-flagging celebration.

Last year I made cupcakes saying Hepi New Year '09.

Might do the same (sleep) this year.

Yes, I AM that boring.



Wish Mr. Katayama is here, so I can step into the new year with a lil faith. He always knows what to say and what to do.

Loveless

I'm doomed. I had a good relationship but I managed to destroy it single handedly. Tak reti bersyukur. What happened to my friends don't happen to me, but I'm still the selfish brat I used to be. I destroyed a good relationship, someone's trust, and a good heart. All for my own alter ego. Maybe Dzeti was right. Maybe I was, and still am, a selfish brat. I don't deserve anyone. I'm so sorry.

Friends surely are forever.

HoHoHoOooOo!

Sydney, 2008.

Merry Christmas everyone. =)

I love you till the end

I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape
I love you till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When were caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
Im lost for words dont tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end

p.s.

Am currently rereading p.s. I Love You by Cecelia Ahern (for the hundredth times)

Reality is nowhere near fantasies, I suppose.



p.s. I don't love you as much as you think I do.

My status right now: Sucks

My parents are trying to tie me down by buying everything that I want.

I guess they can sense that I was bored to death on my third day at home.

So now, I can just say the word, they will get me anything I want.

But hey, come on, how many luxurious stuff can you find in this hell-hole of a town?

I even made my dad crazy looking around for cucur cempedak cuz I was craving for it, and apparently it's not the cempedak season.But he managed to find it anyways.


I miss my life in Auckland.

p/s: I just realized I don't have a picture at Auckland Skycity. Or anywhere near it. Shitty shit.

Eyes

My eyes.
They won't stop watering.
No, I'm not crying.
They just won't stop watering.
And they hurt.
Why oh why?

I'm still in NZ timezone.

Go to bed everyday at 9pm Malaysian time (2am NZ time)

Wake up everyday at 4am Malaysian time (9am NZ time)






Yes, my body+brain are still in NZ timezone. Damn.

There is no place like home.

My new home is foreign. It's new, and I never stepped in it even once before. Last night was the first time. When I stepped in, I got that feeling. You know when first time you step into other people's house and just evaluate the areas, the design, and the atmosphere? Then it hits me. This is not someone else's house. This is my house. And I love every second being in it. But sleepiness overcomes, and I went to bed early. This morning I woke up and I realized that I last night I didn't go to other parts of the house. Just my room and the toilet. Not even the kitchen. Took a short tour this morning, and holy shit, my parents' room is huge! Mine is okay, sharing with lil sis Suraya cuz we are both never home (me in IPBA and she in SMJ's girls hostels).


I still can't get rid of the foreign feeling of being in the house. Oh, and Malaysia is damn hot. But I love it nevertheless. Home sweet home.