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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Here, there, everywhere

It's been a few days I last updated this blog. Not out of pure laziness (well, maybe a teeny weeny bit) but I was away, back home, and away again. Been to Coromandel, Hamilton, Cape Reinga, Kerikeri, all in less than a week. So yeah, my schedule was hectic to the point that my normal meal of the day is chips with tap water, and again, at night, biscuits with tap water. And when I got back, lotsa stuff are waiting to be settled. One of the out most important is to buy gifts for the lecturers in the upcoming farewell dinner, which is planned to happen tomorrow, Allah permits. Another stuff waiting on my list are:

1. Selling furnitures (Yes I got lots)
2. Look for and send Mr. Katayam's stuff to his home
3. Find clothes/shoes/bag to give and donate them.
4. Cash out the cheques
5. Close bank accounts + cancel credit card
6. Ask MAS "Where is my itinerary for KL-Penang?"
7. Contact Angie
8. Sell my stuff on TradeMe
9. Buy a new micro SD to replace the old, broken one so I can (finally!) start playing DS again
10. Look for a dress to wear tomorrow at the annual dinner.

The list could go on and on. Hey, but I love doing them. Each one of them.

Makes me feel useful.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to leave. Please.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Today is War day

Dear my fellow Cohort 4 comrades,

The war is upon us. Today.

I have seen some of the horrifying after effects. Looking blankly to the walls, singing hindi songs, dancing and swinging hips, cheerleading, craving for sour lollies, etc etc.

Try to stay alive.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Since when guys beating up girls is ok?

Rihanna: He was my best friend. To fall in love with your best friend, its scary.

Rihanna: Love is so blind. It's so blind.

In an interview with Diane Sawyer on 20/20 about the beatings she received from Chris Brown.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

V me. V me again.

1 down.

1 more to go.

Let's do this! (without failing!)

Oh, I'm talking about exams.

p/s: apparently V energy drink+energy shot work on me. They make me fly. Yeah baby. Fly.

Friday, November 13, 2009


Less thank 24 hours to exam.

Wish me luck.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Is it other things, or is it ME?

My first day as an un-employed, and all day I have been eating+blogging+watching tv+eating+shopping. Why, I have no idea. I am supposed to be studying now, considering my first exam is just around the corner. This Saturday to be precise. Today I got up early, bother my sleeping housemates, surf the net for 2 hours, made some sandwiches, play games, and then I came back to my lappie. I don't know what happened to me. It is so hard to concentrate now. When I was in IPBA I used to stay up at nights and when I woke up for Subuh, I often stayed up studying until it's time for class. But now that is not the case. I woke up early, determined to go to uni today so I can finally start my revision, but no. I blogged. And I checked my FB. I thinks it's a procrastination syndrome. I wish I am me two years ago. I knew I was not clever and brilliant so I studied. Now, I still know that I'm not clever and brilliant but I just can't wrap my head around the fact that I SHOULD BE STUDYING NOW!!!!Is it the emotional disturbance I'm feeling lately? (Going back to Msia, fights with Mr. Katayama, nearing PMS, etc etc). Or, it is me who has changed, not to a better, but worse person?

Monday, November 9, 2009

Strawberry festival

First my stuff, then me.

Today is the official day I resign from Munchy Mart.

No more working 7 days a week.

Now I can call myself a full-time housewife, LOL.

Stuff are probably on the cargo ship now.

Otw to Msia.

Will miss you Auckland.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Balloons. Lots of balloons.

We fought over the stupidest thing. Then we watched UP. =)

The unhealthy guide to an unhealthy lifestyle

Mrs Mac's Spinach and ricotta roll
A bottle of Assam milk tea

Custard bun
Pad Daeng+rice (Ayutthaya)
Pulou rice (Indian style)

Strawberry and ice cream
3 pieces of sushi, Giapo, a piece of fried chicken

Paddlepop ice cream
Briyani rice (Indian style)

Mrs Mac's spinach and ricotta roll
Goreng pisang+maggi

3 pieces of sushi, one piece of OSM (one square meal)
Maybe having Pad thai(Ayuthaya)

Planning to wake up at 12
Planning to make a homemade dish
Probably something form Munchy since I'm working 3-11pm.

I'm craving for satay. Real bad.

Friday, November 6, 2009

God forgive me, for I have sinned

Truly, I believe everyone will be scared thinking that they will lose their loved ones. Everyone will be terrified imagining that. But do we really? I mean, I am not trying to question your sincerity, but I am merely questioning how much have you really gave a thought about that matter?

Like everyone else, I am scared of losing the people I love dearly in my life. But it never really occurred to me how much it will hurt. What would I do long after they are gone? Will small things like their perfume and the sound of their laughter lingers after they are long gone? And if I do feel them around, is it really them, or just a pigment of my imagination? If someone you love is gone forever, how long would it take for you to move on? Or will you not?

I (accidentally) read a very honest, touching blog this morning (I should have studied linguistics!). Have you ever read a blog of a total stranger and cried from it? Have you ever felt that what she went through, was so close to your heart and you feel like as if you are experiencing the same thing she experienced, without even knowing her name? Heartagram, I'm thankful that I found you. Because you made me realize those little things I was too scared to think of.

We often think that our problem is the biggest among all problems. Not having enough money to spend, having slow internet connection, arguing with bf, so many things to study for exam and whatnot. Maybe you have, maybe you have not. Today, reality came knocking on my conscience door. It said "Hello. Other people have bigger problems than you. Grow up." That shocks me, and redirect my moral compass. God please forgive me, for I have sinned. I will try to stop worrying much about the smallest-littlest-unimportant-things in my life, and just try to be thankful everyday, every time, for all the blessings HE gave me. Amen.

Thursday, November 5, 2009


I am tired. As I'm typing this entry, my eyes are half open and half closed. Since last week I had been working every single day. Seven days a week. Regular customer of Munchy should know this. And people keep thinking that I have NO exam because I work every day. Unfortunately, I DO have exams. For this week, it's the same story. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Work, work and work. But next week, this will not happen again. I worked my butt out last week and this week, but next week, time to study. It's hard to believe that my exam will be next week. Still a lot to study. Deym.

I wish I could come back to NZ after having a long vacation in Malaysia. Unfortunately, that will just remain as a wish.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Nothing much

A picture is worth a thousand words, so people say.

But My picture is worth a thousand love.

Thanks. =)

Monday, November 2, 2009

18 days, and counting.

I told you everything. Not because I want to make you feel jealous. Not because I want to test your temper. Not because I want all the attention. I told you everything because in this life drama that we are starring in, I don't want to play the cheating bastard. Cheating or going behind people's back is not in my nature. But maybe sometimes I do act like that. Maybe I had cheated and gone behind people's back before, but everyone makes mistakes. I know, I'm not perfect. But neither is you. Neither is anyone. I told you what I told you because I don't want to play the cheating bastard. And I wasn't cheating. I am sure of that. If I had cheated on you, why in hell would I tell you anything? I might be slow at times, but I'm far from stupid. I wish I could paint what I feel on a canvas and show it to you. Maybe. Maybe, someday. So Mr. Katayama, if you are reading this, I apologize for what I had done. From the bottom of my heart. Just have faith in me.

How I wish I could freeze the time.