The Fear

Finally, my fear of driving is gone!

Well, maybe, a bit here and there, but not enough to stop me from going out on the road! Yeay!

Having a girls day out is so much fun! (random much?)

Oh.My.God.

Quit it already.

You're not cool.

What you're doing is not cool.

What you're saying is not cool.

It never was, it never will be.

So please, quit trying so hard.

For your own sake.

April Scream

April will be a mess. A disaster. Why IPBA has to be super hectic? I don't get it.

Argghhhhh!!!!!!!

I wish...

I wish I could go back to my childhood years. When I had nothing to worry about. When times flies and the only thing that matter is to finish your homework asap so you can go out and play with your friends. When body image, self- esteem issues and life partners never meddle the little brain. Too bad we all have to grow up. To become our own person, and with years that transform our little brains to mature ones, comes along the responsibilities, problems, workload, and relationships. Sometimes I wonder how one can be so laid back in one's life. How one can be so confident and comfortable in one's own skin. How everyone else solve their problems and get on with their lives, even when their problems are bigger than mine. God, please send me someone to lean on. I feel like I'm being left behind.

A lesson on life

Life teaches you countless lessons.

It doesn't have a face, it doesn't have a voice. But still, it teaches you many, many things.

When you fall and no one was there to help you get up, it teaches you that you are on your own in this world.

When you cry your eyes out for someone you love but no one was there to console you, it teaches you that you need to start act mature and stop crying like a baby.

When you are in trouble but no one was there to lend a helping hand, it teaches you that you need to get up on your own feet and help yourself.

When you're in a middle of a huge crisis and you desperately look everywhere for a glint of hope, but there was no one to help you through it, it teaches you that dependency on people is a full load of empty promises.

When you're simply alone and need someone to talk to but no one was there, it teaches you that sometimes life is just shitty like that.

So many things life can teach us, that even the best teachers in schools couldn't. Subjects like self-esteem, motivation, friends, love, money.

But at the end of the day, the most important lesson is that you are all alone in this. We're all in this together? Bullshit. That's just a lyrics from High School Musical's song.

Bullshit.

Things are different, but better

I used to think that being in an open relationship would destroy the relationship itself, but apparently I was wrong. Opening your view and looking from others' perspectives deeply, sure helps. And imagine being in others' shoes. Avoid negative thoughts and suspicions. Think positively about the issue at hand, and InsyaAllah everything will go just fine.


It's not as bad as I think it was, if you know where your loyalty stands.


p/s: Please feed me painkillers. Having a massive headache everyday is apparently not amusing (anymore)